The Break Up {Part 2}

I miss her.

I push away my pride and call her later on that week,

'cause I don't believe we're done, so I just have to see.

She picks up after three rings,

I ask "how you doing?
how's your life going, and how are things with your new man?"
"I don't have a man." she responds to my awe
"He was just a friend. What I told you was out of anger, I never wanted us to end."
"Really?"
"Really.

What you did was make my heart ache. I acted the way I did to show you I loved you, not be your heartbreak."
"Then why don't you ever call?"
"What happens whenever I call? We have an arguement, and that's pretty much all!"
"Because you grunt when I call!"
"I have pride problems...to be back with you, I'll do what I can do to solve em."
"Pride problems?"
"Yes, I'm, stalling when I see that you're calling
-rush to the phone, pace before I pick up so I don't pick up wrong."
"Wrong?"
"I can't let you hear my voice so excited. So I front like I'm not sprung- I try my best to hide it."
Silence...

...
I say..."Baby, don't you know that's what I want?
I want you, I want us, baby- I want this to work.
But this can't work if you're holding all that in,
'cause I could have sworn that you were done, that you were over me, man.
I ask questions constantly to hear your thoughts, I thought u were tired of it...
thought you felt I was a job and wanted to be retired from it."
"Whoa, boo...you got it wrong.
I actually love it when you ask me things- just so I can open my heart,
'cause I knew you would'nt hear it any other way from the start."
"Babe, why can't you just be real with me?
Open up, let me kno whats the deal, baby?
Hold on, someone's calling the other line."
(pause)
it's the other chick, I tell her I'll have to chat with her another time...

to be continued...

Peace & Blessings

Lu

The Break-Up {Part 1}

Ring.

My heart beats faster.

Ring.

I start to think twice...

Ring.

I form my words together...

Ring.

She picks up.

"Shorty, listen-

I'm digging you ma, but-
just not like her.
The things you do are good, but-
just not like her.
You dress sexy, but-
just not like her,
and when I think of wifey...
your face doesn't come up, but one
just like hers.
When I call, she tells me she wants me to
just like her.
You're messing up, and there are many other girls
-just not her.
I'm choosing, and they're choosing too;
many to choose from, and evidently my mistake was choosin you.
I used to smile when i saw you,
now it's like... whatever.
Butterflies when I heard you,
now it's like... whatever.
Actually I get depressed......shit, never

- whatever.
'Cause when I call you just grunt and be like...'whatever'.
But when I call her, she's excited,

puts down what she's doing
asks question afta question, like "baby, what you doing?"
I can't tell her that

what I'm doing is thinking about you
-but if this is true, why is it her that I pursue?
The names I used to call you start to slip into my vocabulary

as I talk 2 her,
'cause I loved you…

but now I love to talk 2 her.
Calling her during the time that I should be calling you;
Her voice has me thinking things I'd do, that I shouldn't do.
Its not me, ma- it's you

-baby please, wait listen...
Hold on, what?

Who?

So you're telling me you feel the same way, too?
Talking to who at the time u should b chattin 2 me?
Oh, F that, ma…I knew it was coming

-just watching your actions, I knew it was here
So I guess this is the break up-it was already near
I'm goin my own way, have a nice life, dear!

I knew you would hurt me, and I promised I wouldn't let it

That's why I got a safety net...
It's cool, now me n her can be happy, be together...
Her and I can explore the love and lust we shared together...
I'm glad I no longer have to worry about your stress...... "

Click.
damn......

next week comes and I'm wishing I never left...

to be continued...

Peace & Blessings

Lu

Quote that shall be quoted

I was talking to my lil brother, and he sends me this in a text:

"She said she willing to teach it

- teach me.

But a made mind is telling her to keep it

- keep me

out of this circle, and away from such pain,

'cause to my understanding, love and pain is the same."

You diiiiigggg?

Let that marinate.

Props to my mans C. Johnson, A.K.A. Superman

Other half of the Super Splash Brothers.

Peace & Blessings

Lu

All Because of You

I saw this video today...
got chills.
I get chills either when something hits home, or when I experience talent...
This video and song was both...lol
I LOVED this song when it came out...I actually wrote a remix to it. lol
I forgot how it went...but it was recorded and everything...
This was my JOINT.
Been there.
"you the type, boo

make a player wanna wife you..."

Peace & Blessings
Lu

My man O!

He likes hip hop...
He likes old school...
Everything he said, I couldn;t have said better myself...
"Art doesn't have to only be a rearview mirror...it can also be a flashlight to see where we're going..."
Ugh...sick.
I'd like him to be my father...
or better yet, my president.
:-)
Peace & Blessings
Lu

Sex in Satin Sheets

Sex in Satin sheets…
That just rolls of the tongue so well…haha.
Sex…
In…
Satin…
Sheets…
You like that?
Would you like to experience this?
I can take you there…

Sex in satin sheets…
Ooohhhh…just saying the words makes me think
mmm…just thinking about it makes me feel…
I kissing you, and you licking me...
baby, I'm willing to take you on this fantasy
Would you like to come? Well that's already been plan A,
B,
C,
and D...
Shhhh…calm down, baby,
slow down a little bit…
I'll take you there
- I promise, just give me a little bit
So much energy and yearn
- ousted from one hug;
Let's put together our ingredients
so we can make love...
mmm...sex in satin sheets.
Let me watch you take your clothes off
-slow, so I can savor,
then I start to kiss...lick...mmmm...
my favorite flavor...
I know you want to peek though,
to see the magic going on below
so I had to get a blindfold,
because you couldn’t keep your eyes closed
What an imaginaton...
How did we get hand bounds from pillowcases?
Sex in satin sheets...
are you wet yet, baby?
Hmmm….did you just say yes, baby?
Passion.
This is what you wanted my lady,
So I came to tell you that your order’s ready
Do you want it nice, slow, and steady,
or do you want me to twist you up like spaghetti?
You say you want it slow, so I ease in like thisssss…
To the rhythm of Miles Davis.
We connect like a hand in a glove- such a tight fit
I’m feeling so secure as I slip through your lips
Damn, you’re dripping wet- you’re so warm
Instrumentals in the background- no words
I don’t want to hear love songs
I make the beat, and I want to hear your song
-I know you don’t sing, but just hearing you moan is music to me...
but even more sweet
I want to hear all of your instructions for me,
Because I want to know exactly what you’re wanting from me
Your legs close around me like a cage
-No way for escape
You say you're hungry for me
Well here's my Black Angus steak...
Slow strokes.
Sex in satin sheets
I pull your mane to my face- suck your lips like a last kiss
Concentration's the only way I'm lasting
You say you can feel me in your stomach, baby…
The funny thing is I'm not even near your stomach, baby…
You murmur you’re about to cum, so that’s one in
I flip you over, love the way we slide on this cool satin
I let you take control, now you’re bouncing hard on me
And it looks like we’ll have to do laundry…
Many women may want it, but this is only reserved for my queen...
Sex in satin sheets.

Drop- Top

I love to drive...to have the control to go where I wanna go, as fast as I wanna go, and how I wanna get there.
The freedom you feel.
I love driving, which is why the day I got home, I jumped in my car, rolled down all the windows- even though it was FREEZING- and took a drive around. The cold air hit my face and swirled around the car as if I had my A/C on high. My hands were numb, but I really couldn't care less. It was great.
Driving is beautiful, and my car is as well, but...
I've always wanted a convertible...ALWAYS.
I wanted to at least ride in one before I died...
My first time was my freshman year in college.
I thought it was such a big deal, beacuse I feel that EVERYBODY doesn't ride in one in their lifetime...so it's like a privelege..lol. Some people will have something blocking them from the sky for their whole lives...
I'm weird, I know.
I also drove one of my friend's the other day...she needed a DD, and I didn't hesitate to help her out- especially when I heard her roof could be dismissed. I felt so good driving it...looking up at the sky...
Then I started to think of all the great things I could do with a convertible...
Like pick my lady up, and drive her to a field...
lower our seats all the way back...and look at the stars as we enjoy each other's company.
You know if you park in a parking lot, or go for a walk, there'll be things in the way blocking the stars...
But if you just drove to a field...and parked...let the top down and leaned back...
wow.
I'll add that to my dream list...lol.

Peace & Blessings
Lu