A shot

Fuk!

"If you don't give a fuk, u get a fuk

-but i don't just want a fuk,

I want luv.

but if all the women are out just givin fuks,

then fuk, I guess i'll never get what i want."

-- Lucius McCall

Peace & Blessings

Lu

The Break Up {Part 2}

I miss her.

I push away my pride and call her later on that week,

'cause I don't believe we're done, so I just have to see.

She picks up after three rings,

I ask "how you doing?
how's your life going, and how are things with your new man?"
"I don't have a man." she responds to my awe
"He was just a friend. What I told you was out of anger, I never wanted us to end."
"Really?"
"Really.

What you did was make my heart ache. I acted the way I did to show you I loved you, not be your heartbreak."
"Then why don't you ever call?"
"What happens whenever I call? We have an arguement, and that's pretty much all!"
"Because you grunt when I call!"
"I have pride problems...to be back with you, I'll do what I can do to solve em."
"Pride problems?"
"Yes, I'm, stalling when I see that you're calling
-rush to the phone, pace before I pick up so I don't pick up wrong."
"Wrong?"
"I can't let you hear my voice so excited. So I front like I'm not sprung- I try my best to hide it."
Silence...

...
I say..."Baby, don't you know that's what I want?
I want you, I want us, baby- I want this to work.
But this can't work if you're holding all that in,
'cause I could have sworn that you were done, that you were over me, man.
I ask questions constantly to hear your thoughts, I thought u were tired of it...
thought you felt I was a job and wanted to be retired from it."
"Whoa, boo...you got it wrong.
I actually love it when you ask me things- just so I can open my heart,
'cause I knew you would'nt hear it any other way from the start."
"Babe, why can't you just be real with me?
Open up, let me kno whats the deal, baby?
Hold on, someone's calling the other line."
(pause)
it's the other chick, I tell her I'll have to chat with her another time...

to be continued...

Peace & Blessings

Lu

The Break-Up {Part 1}

Ring.

My heart beats faster.

Ring.

I start to think twice...

Ring.

I form my words together...

Ring.

She picks up.

"Shorty, listen-

I'm digging you ma, but-
just not like her.
The things you do are good, but-
just not like her.
You dress sexy, but-
just not like her,
and when I think of wifey...
your face doesn't come up, but one
just like hers.
When I call, she tells me she wants me to
just like her.
You're messing up, and there are many other girls
-just not her.
I'm choosing, and they're choosing too;
many to choose from, and evidently my mistake was choosin you.
I used to smile when i saw you,
now it's like... whatever.
Butterflies when I heard you,
now it's like... whatever.
Actually I get depressed......shit, never

- whatever.
'Cause when I call you just grunt and be like...'whatever'.
But when I call her, she's excited,

puts down what she's doing
asks question afta question, like "baby, what you doing?"
I can't tell her that

what I'm doing is thinking about you
-but if this is true, why is it her that I pursue?
The names I used to call you start to slip into my vocabulary

as I talk 2 her,
'cause I loved you…

but now I love to talk 2 her.
Calling her during the time that I should be calling you;
Her voice has me thinking things I'd do, that I shouldn't do.
Its not me, ma- it's you

-baby please, wait listen...
Hold on, what?

Who?

So you're telling me you feel the same way, too?
Talking to who at the time u should b chattin 2 me?
Oh, F that, ma…I knew it was coming

-just watching your actions, I knew it was here
So I guess this is the break up-it was already near
I'm goin my own way, have a nice life, dear!

I knew you would hurt me, and I promised I wouldn't let it

That's why I got a safety net...
It's cool, now me n her can be happy, be together...
Her and I can explore the love and lust we shared together...
I'm glad I no longer have to worry about your stress...... "

Click.
damn......

next week comes and I'm wishing I never left...

to be continued...

Peace & Blessings

Lu

Quote that shall be quoted

I was talking to my lil brother, and he sends me this in a text:

"She said she willing to teach it

- teach me.

But a made mind is telling her to keep it

- keep me

out of this circle, and away from such pain,

'cause to my understanding, love and pain is the same."

You diiiiigggg?

Let that marinate.

Props to my mans C. Johnson, A.K.A. Superman

Other half of the Super Splash Brothers.

Peace & Blessings

Lu

All Because of You

I saw this video today...
got chills.
I get chills either when something hits home, or when I experience talent...
This video and song was both...lol
I LOVED this song when it came out...I actually wrote a remix to it. lol
I forgot how it went...but it was recorded and everything...
This was my JOINT.
Been there.
"you the type, boo

make a player wanna wife you..."

Peace & Blessings
Lu

My man O!

He likes hip hop...
He likes old school...
Everything he said, I couldn;t have said better myself...
"Art doesn't have to only be a rearview mirror...it can also be a flashlight to see where we're going..."
Ugh...sick.
I'd like him to be my father...
or better yet, my president.
:-)
Peace & Blessings
Lu