There is strength in love...

Old post 2/4/08

I was having a nice conversation with my ex- girlfriend, and she told me she truly believed that you need another person to be there if you're truly trying to get over somebody.

It's amazing how much I disagree...
this whole time I've been trying to get over her without using someone else, because I believe the feelings I have for the 'rebound' won't be real, and I'd hate to hurt a woman by using her so I won't be alone, or lonely.

I've been fighting it out, not trying to get with anybody, and just trying to make myself better- so when I'm ready for another relationship, it'll be because I want one, and not because I just want someone there to fill the vacancy. I would no longer be hurting, so I wouldn't take out my pain and anguish on my other...
...My mind will be fresh, and ready for another battle in this war called love...
...the fight over hearts.

There is strength in love...
which is how I know I was truly in it.
When I should have hated her, I continued to love her, and when I should have been gone, I stayed around.
She could do something terrible to me, and I'd disregard it in order to be with her, because I knew how good we could be.
There is strength in love...

I guess this explains the late night call she received from some guy as I was sitting there helping her study.
The proof in the pudding...
she said it out of her mouth...
Usually you give people your number when you're interested in them...right?
There IS a such thing as a fake number, right?
She claims she's bothered that I may be getting over her...
no...I think she just wants the upper hand. She wants me to be miserable while she holds all the power she knows she has...
or had...
It's cool though, because he holds letters, and that's never good. They can enjoy their flings, and late night convos...soon it'll die down and she'll realize he's not worth it, because he's not me.
80/20 % rule...he seems like a better choice because he comes with no work...
But in the long run...
What a downgrade...hahaha.
But I aint trippin.

Peace & Blessings
Lucius McCall

Registration

It's 7:10 am...
Do you know what Lucius is doing...?
He got up at 6...
And he's sitting in front of a computer...
Guess yet?
Ugh...
It's registration time, and if you're a college student, you understand exactly where I'm coming from.
For some reason, registration this time around was at 7am, when it used to be at 9...
You can only ask God why.
So I get up early...drag myself out of bed...and head to the library- half a mile away.
I finally reach the library, and I see one of my good friends, Mr. Rich, along with dozens of other people waiting to start registering. I link up with Rich, and take a look around.
The Internet Cafe is open, and that's completely full with a waiting line.
I was planning on going to the second floor, maybe even the third, but to my surprise- a gate is pulled down to block it's way!
At the time, it's 6:55...
I needed to get to a computer- in five minutes- five minutes ago.
Rich starts to look around, and like the army man he seems to be, he spots an opening that can get us upstairs...
A rope used to prevent people from going into the library, and an elevator beyond that.
He started to go under the rope.
I laughed and told him to stop- I know how the librarians are. They're Nazis, I guess police academy rejects! If they caught him trying to sneak into the closed off area of the library, they'd probably have his head...
He looked around, and did it anyway. I told him that if he gets through, I'm with him.
Well what do you know? He gets by.
I sneak under the rope as well.
He pressed the button for the elevator, backs up, and remains hidden behind a wall like a CIA agent. He says the elevator will make noise, so we can't be near it.
I doubted the librarians would be paying attention, but I followed the orders.
First floor- going up, said the elevator...
smart move.
So we waddle to the elevator and try not to make too much noise, because we're at the point of no return, and also at the point of if caught...who knows what the protector of books would do to us!

Calvin couldn't have said it any better...
But anyway, we get in the elevator, and get to the second floor, where there is an area of ALL computers. It's where students go to do their 'computer stuff'...The floor where you DON'T go if you want to get work done.
The computers just call you...they whisper your name if you manage to walk past them and sit at a desk...
They call you...with a soothing voice...until you finally decide, hey...maybe if I get on the computer for a LITTLE bit, it won't hurt...I need to take a break between studying anyway- when you haven't even STARTED studying!
I know it's not just me...lol.
Anyway, Rich is about to exit the elevator, but I pull him back in and tell him not to. The librarian that we were dodging has a straight view of the second floor, and as soon as she saw us beyond that gate...hmph.
He said I was right, surprising, because when it comes to Rich, he's always right!
I smiled to myself as we headed to the third floor, where there was a computer classroom. I prayed that it was open, because unlike the second floor where the computers are available in mass, the computer classroom had a door- that could be locked.
We get to the third floor, ignore the talking elevator, and sneak up to the classroom.
"I hope it's open." Rich says.
Stole the thought from my mind.
Thief.
I do the honors, and wallah(sp), the door opens!
"Bingo!" Rich says as we step in and turn on the lights.
It's now 7, and registration has STARTED.
I'm not sweating too much though, because there were dozens of children sitting downstairs waiting for a free computer- those without a laptop, or those who refused to spend the night in the library.
As I logged into the computer, rich was talking alot about bucking the system...and about how if I hang with him, I get free access, and blah...lol. No disrespect, but I was too focused on getting these classes. I was already behind the race.\
I log in, and try to add my first class, and....
System Error. You may register on- tomorrow?!
What the hell?! I wondered. Why??
I went to see if I had any holds- dues to pay the school that hold your access to your transcripts, and prevent you from registering...
none.
Then what was the problem??

{Sigh}...as if I didn't have enough stress on me already.
ooouuusssssaaaaaa! (where are the blue berriesssssssss? LOL- JK! But seriously...)
If you're registering, good luck...I hope you get the classes you need.
As for me...it's in God's hands.

Peace & Blessings
Lu

P.S. At the end of the day, the next day I woke up early and didn't have to run to the library, because there was nobody inside the comp lab in my apartment complex...
So I sat there and found the classes I needed at times I wanted!
So everything worked out! :-)

Something Good

To get something you never had,

you have to do something you never did.
When God takes something from your grasp,

He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better.

'The will of God will never take you where the
grace of God will not protect you.'

Word

Peace & Blessings

Lu

All around the world

"I'm thinking of a master plan
-nah, I'm lying- shorty on my mind...
I dig into my pocket, all my money is spent,
but I don't even sweat, cuz shorty priceless...
I roll up, this is a hold up- it's young money
shorty make me smile when there aint a damn thing funny...
but still aint nothing move but the money
so baby if I move, we gon move with the money
which is my favorite dish,
but if I taste you, that'll probably switch..."

-- Lil Wayne All Around The World

I feel it.

Peace & Blessings

Lu

Ya diig?

I'm certainly proud of my man Wayne...
Stay strapped for life
Stay strapped FOR LIFE...
you dig??
Just playing with words...excuse me.

2 new singles, Lolipop and Millie= PIFF!
Release the album, please sir.
No more leaks

Peace & Blessings
Lu

The Break Up {Part 3}

I click back,

she asks “who was that?”
Man, what a good question...
Everything I did with this other woman, I start to reget.
My girl wasn’t like her at all...

my girl was the one who'd catch me whenever I'd fall
-she was the one I couldn’t ever wait to call
-she was the only I could sit with in silence, yet love it all...

I start to think damn, what have I done?

leavin the one I love
for the one I like…how dumb!
Then the things the one I love used to do start to float
in my mind, so thoughts of being with her again start to choke
Like how she always thought negatively…
how she seemed bored, so I thought she’d rather be with someone “better than me”.
How I always had to tell her I that loved her first,
or playfully force it out of her…that was the worst
How she stopped saying it when we argued...
“Hello? Lu, baby u on the phone? Hello? Where are you?”
“Yeah, I’m here. Just thinking about the pros and cons of you

along with the cons and pros of me and you...
Then I’ll know for sure if I really want to be with you.”
“Baby, don’t trip- I’m just going through a phase,

we can fix this shit!”
“Well if you were in love, then that phase couldn’t exist!
You say you're scared to express yourself to block pain and hurt

-but real love casts out all fear, never heard that before?
I tell you how I feel about you everytime we talk
-how I love to hear you with no distractions, just laying in the dark
-how your voice could stop me right in my tracks,
and the sweet- berry love…turned to wine when I laid you on your back.
As time goes on, we get worse though...
and I can’t sit here and allow it to get any worse, yo!
I don’t trust you, you contradict yourself, and it stains my mind like blood do
And honestly, I’m starting to feel like I never loved u…”

To be continued...

Peace & Blessings

Lu

Dunn Dunn

Shawty Lo doing big things!
I'm not going to front...I can see him on mad songs this year...
Why? I don't know...lol
Maybe it's the swagg...
Been feeling him since I'm da man though...
"Got no wife, but the white be my girlfriend!"-- Shawty Lo
The footage you saw today is the reason you will NOT see me in Bankhead unless I'm just driving by...lol!

Peace & Blessings
Lu