Quotations

It's crazy how quotes are...
Alot of us already know what the quotes are, and believe what they say- we just need someone to say it to us...
then we quote them.
It's all common sense, we just don't know how to word our feelings just right...

"Don't cry because it's over, smile beauce it happened..."

I try to live by this quote more and more everyday...
You never know what you have until it's gone...period. People get so used to people being around...they start to look at the things they don't like about a person instead of loving the good things about them...
They get so used to the good things, that it's no longer special...
It just becomes a 'normal' thing...
Expected, not respected...dig?
And that's where things go wrong...

My most recent relationship was something else...It sucks more than anyone knows that it's over. I get so worked up over it being done, that I don't sit back and realize that the important thing is- it happened. I experiecned some of the best times of my life...finally experienced love, and during that relationship I was molded into a MAN...
There were bad times, heart break- lies, cheating, and sneaking...but this happens with 99.5% of relationships. (yeah, i'm on my percent ish now...)
I used to run- run FAST- from a relationship, because I knew that since I wasn't ready to get married, the beginning of a relationship would one day face an END. And I didn't wanna deal with that...
I didn't want to fall in love with somebody, and then endure the pain after they left...
"When it's real, I'm all in it/
But I don't want the scars of love that you get when you fall in it..." --Fab
I've been hurt and hurt and hurt over and over again...who wants that?
But you live and you learn, and you evolve...there's SOOO much more to a relationship than the end. Enjoy the rest!
I also felt that a relationship would distract me from the more important things in life. Pshhhh...
Relationships are a big part of life...and If you have a great relationship with yourself, a relationship won't pull your mind off of what's priority. Period. There is a such thing as a balance, and will power. There is a such thing as a good partner, who won't allow you to be distracted...
I do know that when I have a lady in my life, I can't help but to give her 100% of me, though...
This is why I won't be in a relationship for a while, because I'm still in the frame of mind that if I have a woman...she'll take all my attention away from what's important- like what has happened again and again before.
I need to get right with myself, and complete myself so nothing can take my mind off of my goals, and plans- even my lady.
The sadness and anxiety of losing her starts to dissipate slowly...but surely.

"Now the question is
is to have had and lost
Better than not having all…"-- Jay-Z

I can't even eat soup without her crossing my mind. She used to drink the broth (ugh!) as I ate the soup...sad its gone, but glad it happened.
Can't even listen to R&B without her crossing my mind...remembering how we used to sing together...or I used to sing for her. I never sung for anybody before her, because I can't sing! lmao...sad it's gone, but glad it happened.
Can't watch Hairspray- her favorite movie, one of mine. Listening to Good Morning Baltimore will just make me daydream about her smile as she sung so loud and proud, the soundtrack that gave me chills.
Tingly sensation? Damnit- I'll have to live with this forever cuz I don't think anybody can satisfy me like she did. I was a head junkie, and she was the master supplier. Let's keep it funky...
Fantasies Fulfilled= sex with a schoolgirl.
The way she moaned Daddy...sad it's gone, but glad it happened.
Her editing of my work...She caught things nobody else could. She used to love my work- and show it...sad it's gone, but glad it happened.
I remember when we used to just act stupid and laugh...the laughs weren't forced...there was no tension, no baggage...we used to just enjoy each other's company and be sooooo spontaneous...carefree...sad it's gone, glad it happened.
Nights are cold now...Loved the way she would rest her head in her little "nook(sp?)", and throw her leg over my body, making us one...I reminisce on the crazy positions we would be in- yet we would be so comfortable! What kinda mess??
Sad it's gone, but glad it happened...
I never knew laughter until her...she was so stupid and quirky...
Sad it's gone...glad it happened...

Don't make assumptions of who it is...I've had many exes...let me vent!

For some reason, I still hold hope...and I choose not to quit until I know the game is over. Until I feel a sense of satisfaction...
Like the 08' Superbowl
Patriots VS Giants
Last 2 minutes...
If you saw it, you know how it turned out- and it amazed everyone watching.
Alot of people gave up on the Giants, just because they were losing and there was two minutes left in the game...
who cares??? the game wasn't over!
It aint over until the clock runs out- something the Patriots need to learn...
I would have taken my 1 second...screw the B.S.
I know the game's done...but I want a rematch. Still in denial that we've lost...
That's deep.

"Love is a journey that knows no end"

My Creative Writing prof said something funny today in class...it made me smirk. He took a trip to NY to meet up with a whole bunch of "famous authors" for some time, and he said he was upset that his girlfriend didn't come to see him. He said he wasn't surpised though...
"I'm probably already her ex boyfriend. She's not my ex girlfriend yet...Don't you hate that?!"
"awwwwwwws" erupted across the classroom.

I feel you, my brother...word.

In conclusion...
To all my ex girlfriends, I'm sad it's done- but glad it happened. Word.
(Oh, don't get me wrong! There's some out there I'm glaaaadddd I don't have to deal with your stupidness anymore! Ugh! Glad you're gone! But as far as the good times...I'm glad it happened.)

Peace & Blessings
Lucius McCall